All I'll ever need in life.......

Girl thinks my room is a shopping mall. Walked out with a bag full of clothes with at least 20 dresses inside.

I love you Wanny Chan. 10 years and strong. xx

 

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Nope, not working those falsies pea.

 

Yummiest Soba everrrrr~~~~

Long lost friend.

Bro of my life. 184 1314. 

 Sluts and proud. SO SO SO?!? Suck your thumb.

It doesn't get uglier than this. I promise.

Prettiest boy on Earth. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH TJ SIE. YOU SLUTBAG. Love overload!

Father.

Welcome back Bao.

#1

#2

#3 Asian Mr Bean

#4 Apparently very pleased with don't know what. Nirvana face. 

And I wonder what's with the hand on the face when I say "come give me a satisfied with life face" Is that a universal thing? To place your hand on your face when you're very happy? 

Neeways....

HAHAHAHAH! Possessed. Not cool man. Not. Cool.

Thank god for most awesome friends on Earth. Where got everyday force people go out one? Force as in book movie tickets for you beforehand kind of force. Plus imagine you're the only who's not attached and you got to hang out with couples everyday. How do you spell fuck my life again? Living torture please.

Hahahahaha.

TJ you're so gonna replace Hwee on my TOP 10 friends. That bitch. (Are you reading SH??) Hahahaha. I love you and Yow so much. I know I'm a ghost but I'm gonna be like Shutter that girl ya'know? I'm gonna cling onto you both for life. 

Don't fret.

Because please know that I'll MIA from all of you once I have a boyfriend cause I'm bad friend like that. Hahaha. What?! Boys over friends. DUH? It's understandable. So please cherish me while I'm around, thanks! For now, all of you are just gonna be my bitches and slaves.

Too bad pussycats.

I'm such a rhymer. Hahahaha.

Yow is a natural. And TJ is just.... mental.

#meteorgardenfail

In case you're wondering, Daryl is not Dao Ming Si. He is Mei Zuo. Got SWAG.

God, I love laughing myself to sleep.

Here's another one,

SEE YOU SOON, BIG BABOON!

x

Haven't cried over any movies for the longest time.

Every part of it just reminds me of us and how we're gonna end up in the future.

I'm gonna die, dead.

"Whatever happens tomorrow, we have today"

10.10.10

x

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Need to raise money for something special! Hehehehe.

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Thank you very muchhhhh!!!

SHOW SOME LOVE!! Xie xie ni!!

My TTR babies~~

FU QI LIAN. Couple forever. You 2 are just meant to be. Really. Hahahahahahahaha.

Thank you for staying late today after the shoot to help me Joycie baby and gang.

And thank you Mel for working all the outfits with your amazing body while I make yours look like shit. What to do? Can't blame me right? Your clothes are just horrible. JUST LIKE YOU! Hahahahahaha I'm kidding!

I wove you weri much!

Did I mention how much I love the TTR babies?

x

Shrine.

At first I think it's great that I'm talking to you again. but we start talking about the things that happened before. Bringing back old memories. And I start to realise how much I really miss us and how I really want you back. But then I remember, you don't need me like I need you.

And it hurts.

Someone once told me: "with each time you cry, you become stronger. Feelings are like tears, it will stream down your face and it will dry in time. Your heart dies a little more each time and soon you become numb"

It's true. 

I'm pretty numb. But somewhere deep down in my heart, I'm still trying to protect that last bit of feelings I have for you. I never want to forget you. Even heartbreak is a gift from you to me now.


I'm angry, I'm mad and I'm disappointed. I can't be happy for you because I'm selfish. Love is selfish. Fuck the crap about being happy for someone if you love them. 

Even if nobody in this entire world knows, you should know. Nobody knows what exactly happened. People will always see what they see and assume what they think it is. But you are not people. You know me way before anybody did. You know me.

Everyone wants to know why I won't let go. It's because if I walk away, I know you won't come after me. I don't think I'm silly. I know I've been hurt time and time again, but my heart says I'm on the right track. 

"i knew from the moment we met, that you'd be hard to forget. Do you realised what you are to me? And what you're always gonna be? You're the love of my life, everyone else will only be second best. There will never be another you. I wish I could be telling the truth when I say I'm over you. You don't just stop loving someone. You either never did or always will. I don't want you to know so I try to be strong. I don't want you to think that without you I can't go on. But that's just how it is. Without you, there's no me."

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"I think one of the worst feelings in the world, right behind heartbreak, is that disgustingly empty feeling you get right after you spill your heart out and lay all your cards on the table. Right after you get the courage to say everything you have been feeling and be completely and recklessly honest. it's that feeling you get right after you risk everything, and he just walks away. Because then you'd realise that you just lost. You just lost everything you didn't even know you had when you said "what do I have to lose?"

There's no use fighting this feeling.

Fuck PMS.

One box of kleenex for this entry.

Seriously. Fuck you.

Baby, you're a Superstar.

 

Happy 20th my dear girl. I wish for happiness every year on my birthday and I wish the same for you too. Nothing makes me happier than to see all of you happy.

It's those moments when you drive around in a car full of friends around a town too small for you. Where you gasp for breath between each laugh. It's those moments where you get high off just breathing in so deep, you feel your lungs getting cold. For a second, that split second, you don't care. You don't care about school, about parents, about money, about rules, or broken hearts. Who you care about are the kids sitting next to you. Cause it's all we really need isn't it? Those kids next to you. Yeah, the ones who make you feel invincible, even at your weakest points.


Here's to the nights that turned into mornings and friends that turned into family.

I love you Tammy Tay, always and forever.

Cross my heart and hope to die.

x

I found an old memory card stucked in my old camera.  I wish there was more. How much I missed those days.

Beautiful.

Don't ask me how fucked up I was. Why I did this, why I did that. It's easy for me to say I did everything and made every mistake because I wanted to get over you. Don't ask me how I get through my every nights. Finally falling asleep because I got so tired of crying and you still haunting my dreams. Waking up the same way I fell asleep. It's a cycle. It never ends.

I miss you once again, I was doing so well. I was getting along, but it comes in waves.

Yesterday was a night in a long long time I felt that I could die, just by crying. So breathless, so so sad. I had too much to drink. And it's gay when you get high and you cry. But I can't help it. I don't think any of my friends saw me crying before. I don't know. Freaked them out. And then I realised it was too gay I had to stop.

But I'm still broken. When you cry so hard you look into the mirror and feel silly.

I am silly.

But it's okay, because I will smile with whatever that's left of me. I don't want your hand this time, I'll save myself.

xx